poem: it’s giving

For beausia’s poem prompts for National Poetry Writing Month 2024. Prompt 9: it’s giving. Written 8.14.24. To be crossposted to IG.


it’s giving
sunshine in winter
a cool gulp of water in the heat
body crème after a hot shower

it’s giving
finding a spoon to eat tiramisu
when you thought you were all outta spoons
and you were ready to dig in with a dirty spoon,
or a butter knife if you needed to, tongue ready
for the rasp of the edge

it’s giving
the first swatch of lipstick, and knowing you’re on fire;
or an unexpected postcard from your best friend
just wanted you to know, I’m thinking of you! 😘;
so you write back and seal your letter with a lipstick kiss
I know you know the value of this

it’s giving
I’m so in love with this life
which means, I am also in love with myself
which means, I also love what it is that has brought me here

it’s giving
three of swords, ten of swords, ace of vials
you will understand, one day, what these old heartaches gave you

poem: traveler’s invocation

Started 7.7.25 and completed 8.18.25. A mix of various inspirations: D&D/adventuring vibes, the last line of aja monet’s unhurt, Tank’s cadence in Tank and the Bangas’ performance with the Louisiana Philharmonic Orchestra, Cedar McCloud’s book title The Flame That Sings, and the birthday girl’s party. Cross-posted to IG.

For V and her birthday.


as the road forks and you must decide
which way to go:
the path of thorns
the path of pins and needles,
and you think,
there must be an other way,
unlatch your guitar, its smell familiar,
the frets and the chords
familiar to your hands.
let the song come forth:
the lullaby your aunt hums while pickleing
the chorus you and your lovers sing over breakfast.
let the notes sail on the wind,
feel the center of the melody, and notice:
in the forest, the birds are singing
and the great cat who walks in sunbeams purrs,
and there – the sound of water rushing.
water, like the fox, is a clever escape artist.

over the fields you’ve come,
to the limits of your gran’s map.
now through the woods
to the rushing stream you go.
where the fleet of foot dip their heads
to water cold and sweet.
to go through the forest once more
or to follow the river?
find the rhythm of your heart,
the rushing of your quiet breath.
where do you turn to, the way
a sunflower chases the sun?

pursue the path,
even if it is not well-trod.
these are often the ways that lead
to marvels like summer lightning
or following a hummingbird to dripping honeysuckle.
be the fool, you have wisdom plenty
to know which nightshade is deadly,
and which you can preserve.
the river winds its way through the mountains
so too, do you tread through this unfurling chapter.
and when fear slips its hand in yours,
asking you to cease to change,
to halt the river’s flow,
know, fear is not –
fear is not?
yes, fear is not
your only companion

in your pockets are fuchsias,
in your pack is your cousins’ dandelion coffee
in your heart is a fire that will not extinguish
so long as you shall live.
the blaze that burns
the blaze that makes the flowers bloom
the flame that licks your hand
the flame that renders water into soup.
dare to dance with the fire in you
as the night sky does with the stars.
spin the starlight into a cloak,
and pull the dream around you
and take it with you as you wake.

dare to live in this burning world
let the fear change for having known you
like water to the stone
like air to the freshly baked loaf –
know: everblooming, in you, so long as you shall live
a shining offering from the depths
to be is joy

where fear has made a home, it too makes space for joy
where water has flowed, will flow again.
and there are so many friends to love, met and not yet met.
and the path is wide enough for every creature.
the horizon is full of promise.
the ocean deep with mystery.
the sky peers down with delight.
traveler go forth
and take with your your many gifts:
a rising tide lifts all boats
so too does your everflowing heart
lift with it us all

poem: meet me


For Beau Sia’s poem prompts from #NaPoWriMo2024, posted 4.1.24. #poemswithbeau Prompt 2: meet me. Still poking at the format; completed for V’s birthday. Cross posted to IG.


meet at my best,
no
meet me at my worst.
wait,
that sounds like an insult, but
it is how I learned to love
from my family.
a terrible example,
but it’s true
I think,
that we are searching for
a loosening, a relaxation of clenched fist
when we love;
and in my family
what came down was
hidden,
empty spaces left
and filled in with
and and .
and in private, the house shook with anger
the way a haunted house moans with the wind.
How do I outrun that kind of legacy?
How do I unclench my teeth and not
catch you in the splash of blood?
How about this,
say,
meet me outside, after I’ve snuck past my
childhood monsters, and crept out the front door
and slapped my feet against the concrete.
Or, meet me outside, after I’ve snuck back home,
and made this house a palace of
water and light and rainbows,
an exhale and not a held breath never let go.
I’m headed somewhere, can you meet me out front?
I wanna show you the landscape of my childhood,
a vista of hills and tiny houses, where I inhale
at last meet me, not my best self or worst self, but
my most tender self, most easily loved self, ready
to take her breath at last.

poem: still my love

For beausia’s poem prompts for National Poetry Writing Month 2024. Prompt 1: still love. Written 4.3.24, completed June 2025 for V’s birthday. Crossposted to IG.


still my love, the birds are singing
at night when I go to bed, sometimes
even in the afternoon sun, when I
blearily open my eyes, light sneaking past the
blackout curtains, the way plants will find
the light anyway they can, the way you and I
are reaching for joy no matter the way the
world breaks.

still, my love, we log online and read the headlines,
the New York Times long unreliable, publishing
things even the Onion couldn’t make funny;
a Canva collage informs me on Facebook that my
mentor-peer-homie-comrade has passed away.
I call out sick, my body insisting we cannot go
on and work and labor and grind beneath the
cis hetero capitalist white supremacist death machine,
not today, at least.

still, my love, I find ways to keep going
on Tuesdays I wake up to listen to Worlds Beyond Number,
on Wednesday Vibe Check, at the end of the work day, I have
Fantasy High Junior Year. I am clinging as best I can,
to what reminds me of joy in year 5 of our collective pandemic.
you know I am a sun lover, ink drinker, but these years I turn
the page to other things like: more podcasts, more TV, more music;
more ways to be in my body
shake it off, bake it off, downward dog my way into this stillness where
I can try my best to be a clear channel for what is next to come.

my love, if I can settle into my flesh, let my spirit
inhabit this body like a mecha, I think I can do magic –
just another word for dreaming, for storytelling,
and conjuring beauty in difference. even now,
especially now, I might not be a child anymore
but I believe there is something we can
still
do
now.

prose poem: going to jupiter

I know, another post so soon! This time I really am trying to clear out the poems sitting on my hard drive. Crossposted to IG.

Written 1.16.25. Channeling Nikki Giovanni vibes, especially her love of space and Mars, after reading Chasing Utopia. The flowers line is a reference to her poem about flowers there.

One of the greats, she passed in December. I love Nikki’s talks, and her music albums (scroll to see her other albums on Bandcamp). If you’re new to her, I highly recommend the documentary about her, Going to Mars: The Nikki Giovanni Project. If your library has Kanopy, you can watch it there for free.



I am going to Jupiter / favorite planet of mine, storm spun rings, where thunder sparks, and I’ll see by lightning, and tell time by the seconds between claps. / it’ll be a long journey, so I’ll take with me my recharageable wand; my grandmama’s crocheted blanket; and books of course, because so far flung, the arts become even more valuable. / for you, Nikki, I’ll take some flowers, orchids of course, and a music collection to shake the stars and boogey on down with them. / surely they’ll want to know what came after Voyagers 1 and 2 and all the other satellite children we sent on up here. / maybe me and New Horizons will meet up and we can sing happy birthday to each other. I’ll even bake a cake and enjoy it enough for the both of us. / when I’m gone, launch me into Jupiter’s oceans and find me making storms with the mermaids. man in the moon won’t have nothing on us.

poem: slipping skins

Originally written 8.15.24 and tinkered with this month. For Beau Sia’s poem prompts (originally posted 4.1.24) for #NaPoWriMo2024. #poemswithbeau. Prompt 10. lifetime work. Vibes from the imagery of Gloria Anzaldúa’s Borderlands, particularly the poem “Letting Go.” Crossposted to IG.

Last edited: 6.9.25



it is a lifetime’s work to slip out of one skin
and into another, like stepping out on december
31st and coming home to the fresh sheet of
january 1st.

it takes skill to know when irritation and frustration
means your skin has grown too tight, and it is not,
in fact, the fact your coworker couldn’t remember your name,
and most certainly did not read the below email that
unlike his FYP, had all the answers he needed. /
letting go is a skill. if only if it were as easy as
ripping off a shirt and growing muscles beneath the full moon.
no, you must chafe against the restrictions until you
have scraped away the old you, burnt up bits of meat
that cling to moon-white bone.

the feeling of your new skin against the world
makes everything feel new again. ecstatic pain, ecstatic joy.
here is a knife’s edge to split yourself upon, and reach
into your guts and pull forth a new you,
rabbit outta the hat, pull the ocean from your cunt with a fist

settle into a new shape, explore the world again, this time as
a scaled thing – last time with your vestigial gills, next time maybe
with feathers growing from your knuckles
that will remind you that each time you clench your body
and make the punching kind of fist, claws upon your palm,
you could let go. release,
open your flesh to what comes next:
perhaps your fangs will drop, perhaps your feet
will become a deer’s
darting through a forest path,
and perhaps you will open your hand



and fly
to catch the wind

poem: sailing to you

Hey, a full moon poem at last again. Written 6.21.23. Musical vibes and inspo: Seinabo Sey’s HEAVY (ft. Seidato Sey), Cedar McCloud’s Numinous Tarot. Cross-posted to IG.


I am sailing to you.
I know it feels like
it’s been a long time, like
I’ve been out at sea and you
’ve been waiting faithfully at the shore.
I know you didn’t ask to be
a candle on the water, but
nevertheless your heart is a light
that calls me closer.
I didn’t ask you to wait for me
but I am grateful for you nevertheless,
the steadfast nature of your heart
that set itself upon me and decided
to never settle for anything less
than my heart, whole and tattered –
all of it yours to be shared.
I’ve traveled a long way to
get to know you dear star.
I do not know when my feet will reach your
shore, I do not know what your hand
in mine will feel like. There is a
continent’s worth of longing between us,
a lifetime of work to make our way here,
but I know the sea – I know what makes
the boat pitch, how to set my feet against the
floorboards, and when to let the water hold me.
I know the water will hold all this and more,
I write my love letters to you in her waves,
and I am sure they will reach you
just as the light of your longing reaches me.
I am sailing to you, don’t give up on me
not yet, just yet, I am sailing, sailing to you.

prose poem: for Darshan

1975-2024. descansa en poder dear one. (cross-posted to IG).

Quotes/references:

  • “There’s nothing new / under the sun / but there are new suns” is an unpublished quote from Octavia E. Butler
  • There’re also oblique references/riffs to Butler’s “The destiny of Earthseed / is to take root among the stars,” Rumi’s “The wound is the place where the light enters you,” and Anzaldúa’s essay title “How to Tame a Wild Tongue”
  • There’s an abridged quote from Darshan: “Big love to all [the] divas, homies, misfits, radicals, lovers, dreamers, and children of this world on fire…”

The call is coming from inside of me, / where this world has broken my heart, and / where the warmth of other suns seeps in, and I / cannot stay. the water, and the land, and the seeds, and the frogs / are calling for me, and I / must go and leave this place. / do not fear, butterflies will rest upon my footprints, seeds will shake loose from my clothes and take root. / octavia said, “there’s nothing new under the sun / but there are new suns,” and we will grow beneath them. I / go ahead, back to the wellspring, the fountainhead of stars. / do not fear, I will be on the breeze, upon a guiding palm, I am going ahead, ways uncrossing.

The future is alight in my heart, a rainbow that refracts, recreates, reclaims: / we are a thousand drops of water, and / we will topple death machines, pull it out with the tide, and walk / upon the shore once more. even the guns / are dreaming of a better world. even the earth / is dreaming of no more strange fruits. only an abundance of life, / our planet a riot in outer space. we party so hard, our rhythm is a beacon to alien life: c’mon over, let us share.

every child is cared for by constellations, a family is a polycule of stars / our tongues run wild, our imaginations stampede out / into the horizon where borders have no meaning, and we travel as freely as the wind and the sea. / time is a currency, love is a current, / a wave bending time itself. our future, your past, my present.

the future is calling, and each of us is a seed, and I / am here dancing, ten toes down, radical divas, homies, dreamers, lovers, we are / here. I see it, and it is so beautiful.

we will make it so.

poem: recipe for your 20 something self

Written 5.23.23 for a prompt from Alice Sparkly Kat’s email, and subsequent Google form. While I didn’t hew closely to the prompt, I did run with the following line: notes for your 20 something year old self. Cross-posted to IG.

Inspo: egg yolk image from an old Christopher Soto poem?, Toni Morrison quote from Song of Solomon. loose vibe inspo from akaVertigo’s Dare To Bake a Peach.


your heart will crack open like a raw egg, all the grief slipping out of you like some long overdue afterbirth. but yolks are gold, and there is gold in this. your mother wills you this grief, but you are also your mother’s daughter and you know how to bake. her signature cake requires eight large eggs, separated, a standmixer, and twenty seven minutes total of whipping. yield: a cake that people marvel at, lighter than air, light enough to lay your head upon, gravity defying. you cannot swim against the ocean, but you can learn to breathe underwater. yield to the wisdom of your body, a vessel of pleasure, a subject of desire, a conduit of your craft. toni said if you wanna fly, you gotta let go of the shit that weighs you down, so surrender to the ocean, a portal your grief has made, let the ocean bring you to its harvest. here is a life that brings you deep feeling, brings you joy. yield, and let what is yours come to you: your unshakeable self, a force as strong as the wind, the storm, the moon, and any star.

prose poem: taurus birthday affirmation

Written for the inimitable kuuleimomi’s birthday. Crossposted to IG.

There’s a Tumblr (?) post that goes something like this: staying soft in this world is not a weakness, it is a strength. This is a variation on that. This also draws from all the Chani Nicholas affirmation horoscopes I’ve read over the years.


Keeping your hands open in this world that has brought down rulers upon your palms. Keeping your mouth open, even after your then-best-friend put the black licorice jellybean, your least favorite flavor, on your tongue. Keeping on, even after capitalism squeezes every cent from your blood, the joy from your marrow.

All of this is a skill. One of my favorite quotes (author unknown even with googling) is that the heart is a muscle, and like any muscle it can grow as we use it. Our ability to remain open, receptive, vulnerable, whatever you like to call it, is also one of these muscles. I have practiced unclenching my hands, even as I sleep, so I can catch whatever dreams come my way. Naming what I want, asking for what I want, letting myself have what I want – I have practiced all of these. I still do.

To paraphrase the end of the Utena movie, the world gets that much bigger for the way we live, pushing at the limits of what we are told is possible. Octavia says the only way to achieve the impossible is to believe it’s been done before.

So I believe in wedding rings on all my fingers, vows of commitment to all my relations beneath this sky and maybe even beyond it. I believe in your palm in mine, and another’s in yours, and another’s in theirs going on and on – a whole loving community. I believe in rain on my tongue, and all the fine dining and comfort food I love. Speaking of love, I believe in love running through my veins, that love is a key and a door to a different world. I believe in pleasure that makes me cry out, in joy that pours through every crack and crevice and barrier ever put in place.

On this day and all days, I keep on, I choose to try, I choose to believe.